currently. sparkles of the season.

“Haven’t Met You Yet”

I’m not surprised, not everything lasts
I’ve broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out
You’ll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get
I just haven’t met you yet

I might have to wait, I’ll never give up
I guess it’s half timin and the other half’s luck
Wherever you are, whenever it’s right
You’ll come outta nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazin
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out
You’ll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid I’ll give so much more than I get
I just haven’t met you yet

They say all’s fair in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it
We’ll get it right and we’ll be united

And I know that we can be so amazin
And bein in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it’ll all turn out
And I’ll work to work it out
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get

Oh you know it’ll all turn out
And you’ll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get yeah
I just haven’t met you yet

I just haven’t met you yet
Oh promise you kid to give so much more than I get
I said love love love love love love love
I just haven’t met you yet


Sparkles. everywhere.

It has been a long time. Okay… a REALLY long time since I typed out my thoughts and just about everything I have brewing inside me. I don’t know if the mixture is strong or just out right crazy… but it’s me. And it’s me with the new year. 🙂

Api and I didn’t sit together for a new years celebration as yet. And that is ONE thing that keeps getting put off on the to do list. Life has just become so overwhelmingly busy. The last week of December was to be spent at Port Grand with the Firefly… and well. 🙂 It was spent attending weddings and being complexed with emotions around family. Which Alhamdulillah was positive.

I have had heaps of jitters… because… I am in my final year now! And it’s scaring me like anything. (even though I’ve survived the first month almost). What worries me is my crazy crazy academia.. I mean. My dissertation got chucked out after four months of reading and research. And even now, I’m slightly directionless. :s What now? I’m contemplating over what needs to be done and how. To add to this sundae, my print major ends next friday. And I have approximately 6 days to make my screen and print my piece AND get it stitched. Yahoo!

Did I mention? The last six months I spent adjusting to my role and duties within the council have now been transferred due to some unfortunate circumstances. Imagine. Allah mian has His mysterious ways. And I pray for the strength to keep up with the mounting expectations that just about hang over my head.

The crazy, hectic, and sometimes annoying demands aside… I feel truly truly blessed. You know, when you pray for something great to happen. And you keep thinking, Allah mian kab… kab… kab… and bam! It comes to you as fast as the strike of a lightening bolt. Alhamdulillah. I feel all sparkly… minus the zukaam and unnerving cough. Sometimes it really isn’t what you prayed for, it’s what you never expected. 🙂

I have had some very sweet words of motivation and encouragement from several Firefly fans lately. And I love how smile sunshine is going around all over town. Yippy! The response for Firefly is growing Alhamdulillah, and I’m learning… on how to balance out work and home.. and then Firefly. It’s so far so good. A little testing at times. But Alhamdulillah!

I feel this is the year of Sparkles and inshaALLAH, more Smile Sunshine moments… with rainbows. 🙂 And oh yeah.. immense work from the Valley…

Got my dreams, got my life, got my love
Got my friends got the sunshine above
Why am I making this hard on myself
When there’s so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy

birthdays and billy.

Well, today has been happening. Very happening. And since about yesterday my legs have hurt so much, they refuse to move a whole lot. Which just simply means I am super tired. And I suppose it’s a given.

Print making has been great. Learned a lot. And explored quite a lot. I can now take out a print without getting it dirty. I think that’s the coolest thing ever. 🙂 Nivy’s birthday yesterday was quiet, but we celebrated it today. After getting back from studio, Mithi and I spent the whole day together. We colored. We played with playdough. We managed to eat chocolate and decide that we’re going to put on ‘shadow’ for the ‘party’ in the evening. We made paper balloons and put them up on the wall. She was so so excited for Nivy’s birthday. Solely because of the cake. And poor thing dozed off waiting. It was a great dinner. Mama made shepard’s pie, mashed potatoes, we had skewer veggies, string beans, corn and home grown spinach, chops, pot roast… and the best cheesecake ever. 🙂 It was an awesome meal. Alhamdulillah.

I’ve been fighting my sleep all day. So much to do, so much happening. That vacation doesn’t seem like it’ll be too much 🙂 Monday is the Print Making minor jury. I have to do my installation. A lot of it. Since I haven’t done anything. And then I need to read for my dissertation’s Literature Review which is due on Tuesday. OH YEAH! Heimtex presentations are on Tuesday too… and the butterflies are simply fluttering around like no tomorrow. The convocation is over our heads as well. So little time… and so much to do.

I am looking forward to the holidays for a return to Port Grand. It’s going to be awesome InshaAllah! 🙂 The beautiful harbor side and open sessions with Api. WHICH are very due… so was my vacation but look how that turned out. :p I need to pick up my internship evaluation form as well as I am gearing up to design a few prints over the holiday. *prays*

I’m off. Eyes closing. Brain going into hibernation.


PS: winter. I love you.

dandelion. today. tomorrow. always.

So, another one of those beyond delayed blog entries. Sigh. I always thought it would be easier to just type out the world of thoughts brewing in my head rather than jotting them down on paper. Guess I was wrong. Doing this takes time too. And if I didn’t post today, I don’t think I’d post for another month…

It has been such a happening November. Alhamdulillah to every aspect of it. It began with little mentions in the papers relating to the Firefly at PortGrand. It was my first proper venture with Api. MashaAllah. Then there was work for Interior Design, a fun project in which I took on the Mexican theme. Then we finally had our juries for print. I have a feeling I cleared it 😉 At the moment it is the last supposed week of uni for the semester. There is immense work. And well, we’re just wrapping things up. 🙂

Printmaking has been fun. As in the work itself has been very rewarding. I feel so free.. so happy doing what I do there. It’s like there’s a medium to be expressive. To just do what you want… the way you want. Sir Usman’s been quite funny and supportive through out. He’s in his ‘cool’ phase this week. Which is working out well for us. Thank goodness.

We have a Heimtex competition amongst our class. Random me managed to get an entry in this morning. I’m content with it Alhamdulillah. It’s Kitchen Textiles. Let’s see how that goes. Next week we have a whole ‘event’ sort of thing. 3 external jurors, 15 Heimtex guests including members from Goethe, our faculty, juniors and people from the admin. Man. We have to present our work via Powerpoint… talk about the source and so on and what we did for our design. There’s a tea time and lunch break… and an awards ceremony. And we have media too. It is somethin. Man! May he who deserves it win and get to go. InshaAllah.

Dissertation run is around the corner. Which means heaps of reading this week. :/

I am tired. No doubt about it. So tired, I haven’t had a balcony session with Api in a long time!

Ayezu got married. YES. She got married.. MashAllah. They both look adorable together.. May Allah Kareem always keep them happy 🙂 Just attended the Mehendi.. was slaving over Heimtex yesterday -_-

I got to talk things out yesterday… which feels good. Great rather and I’m hoping now things will be better, for the better.

I want to sit and spend a day just thinking and writing. But that day isn’t happening any time soon. Sighs. 🙂 My internship is this Decemeber too.. Woot! I shall be done with some of it before summer. Yeay!

Nivy’s college applications are heading out. Every night I just get little shudders.. he’s leaving. My little brother is going away for an x period of time. Sigh. I will have Mithi right? She’s such a cute monkey sometimes. 🙂

I’m tempted to thumbnail my work but am hesitant because I recently had someone post up my drawings for sale as Tshirt transfers. Which upset me a lot. Why would you do that just ’cause you like it?

I shall go to bed now. Lots to do during the day. We are taking out Final Prints of our plates… and I need to make more spider web affected roses…


I’m listening to Chris Brown’s Forever.

You know how when you listen to some songs, you keep playing certain memories in your head? I’m having that rush of nostalgia at the moment. The past weeks have been a roller coaster. I have had days where I’ve disliked most of the people around me. And there have been moments where I’ve constantly said thank you to Allah Mian, and been grateful that I have what I have if not more.

This blog post is a little over due. I was to write it a few nights back. When I watched the sea and breathed in that life of the stars again. It was so beautiful watching the moon reflecting over the waves like an orb. So pristine. So mesmerizing.

In recent weeks I had an opportunity to design lawn prints. I worked on it a little, but realized I couldn’t divide time there without compromising designs and color. It’s like the thoughts were random, and my work didn’t turn out the way I wanted it too. I’m hoping I still have that chance in December.

October, which is nearly gone has been such an intense month. I got myself a phone upgrade courtesy mum. She got her laptop. Finally. It’s red. It’s hotter than mine.. but I still heart my Dell to the core. It’s my precious! I had two opportunities for tomorrow… to put up a Firefly stall. One at Nixor Day and one at SZABIST. At first I was debating which one to go to… and then decided to forgo both, solely because next week is the most exciting bit of October in my eyes. Api was approached by PGAG regarding craft stalls. Ten days ago this was just a prospect. And now, we’re both both a week into the working on putting things together for yet another superb collaborative. 🙂 The place is beautiful. I could stay there. The harbor, the sea… sigh. The ambiance is serene. InshAllah, this will work to the best for Api’s Creative Studios and the Firefly.

I’ve been lucky with the orders this month. Every one wanted them by the end of October. So instead of two batches, I processed everything once this week. I get all of it back tomorrow. And the magnets are so cool. They look like the real deal. 🙂 We’re innovating them bit by bit.

I’ve had a lot of pressure from school lately. Because we’ve had intense work from Interior Design. I’m actually noticing improvement in my illustrations of perspective. YEAY. We’ve had Chaotic Dissertation tutorials. NO direction. I’ve been reading the Silk Route like mad. I even explored Traditional Indian Textiles. It’s all documented. What’s new?! What do I ask? What do I research?

This week I took two offs. One ’cause there was a NEED for it. And the next day I woke up sick. I still am. It’s a little annoying when there’s so much to do. There’s the Strings concert tomorrow. I would like to attend… condition I feel well enough to.

Api gave me a lovely surprise yesterday.. or rather the day before. And it just made my heart melt, along with my cravings for something sweet. 

It’s a special Choti edition cake. Pictures thori off hain, but the doodles were adorable. I even saw Api and Me walking together til we’re 60. 😀 This made me feel super great. I was already low. And this just chirped me up. =) Thanks Api! *hug* It wasn’t butter cream… but it tasted damn good!

I had that moment yesterday when I felt like throwing out everything.. hence went on a cleaning rampage. It looks good here.. the room I mean. And I hope I stay around home a bit to keep it that way!

Slowly, I’m moving away from things that I gave so much importance. Not because they’re not important. But because I feel they don’t deserve that pedestal… the way other things have begun to. I’m grateful I don’t need to be a part of a ‘mess’ of lies, ill talk, gossip and constant dual faces… it got hard keepin track! 🙂 Alhamdulillah. Good Riddance!

What is forever?

No friendship lasts that long.

No promise stays that strong.

Is forever the memory that remains untold?

Or is forever the tomorrow that is yet to unfold?

I’m still wondering. What that dream was. It was happy. Just really happy…

Wat that the Forever to come? or the Forever that’s passed?

Sunday’s longer than Monday.

– Live and Breath the Silk Route. Read 150+pages for Dissertation

– Redraw perspective for ID

– Redraw perspective sketch

– Do second perspective sketch

– Two alternate plans of Dining Room

– Transfer lawn prints to Illustrator/Photoshop

– Finish Print Design Illustrations

– Finish sewing on laces

– Process pending orders for keychains, bookmarks and cards.

– Paint baby Onesies for Monday

– Finalize Frankenstein, Elvira and the rest

– Keep mind over occupied to block out the pessimism.

– Go to sleep.

no cookie. no sleep. no time!

It’s 11 pm and I’m supposed to be designing prints on croquis right about 4 hours ago… and I’m supposed to read 100+ pages of text in the next 12 hours on the Silk Road. And I’m supposed to sketch interior dining spaces and conduct a market survey. How lovely it would be if our country was a little more tech savvy and actually had decent websites with their catalogues online.. wouldn’t have to run all over town looking for something I could look into to place in an imaginary space.

It is day 4. And Bravo Bakery has STILL not made those chocolate chunk cookies! I mean WHY!!! The chocolate chip ones are average. And I don’t want to walk into Subway, JUST to get cookies. This is not on.. supply and demand means YOU SUPPLY when others DEMAND!

Today was supposed to be a productive day.. and by God, it was and it’s still isn’t over so I can get some work done 😀 We went to check out tv’s all over Clifton today. After surveying and researching, we went back to the first place, brought the guy home.. and he installed it. Nivyan’s dream. :p

And I got a piece of mine 😀 I finally got it.. my new phone. I chucked out the idea of the c3. I was only getting it cause o the wi-fi at the price. Then I rethought it… and went for the e5. I’m still learning the ropes.. still trying to get around to all the functions. The QWERTY isn’t bad. I’m just used to the alpha numeric with prediction text! But it’s a great piece.. loving it. Alhamdulillah. Mama’s the coolest 😀 She didn’t like the value bit of c3. Said I should opt for something better! And yeay… new life online

I should go. I can’t rant about cookies or work anymore. I need to get to it. Sighs.

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